Back to blogging

Hello Lovelies, hope you are well and in great spirits. Last time I blogged was back in September of last year where I announced I was going to be a mommy!... well 9 months and a baby boy later I'm back to what I love to do and that's blogging. it's short to say that my live has changed drastically from been an independent full time wife to becoming a stay in house wife, frankly now that I have Mateo with me I wouldn't have it any other way ! Cant be apart from him for too long.

Mateo was born on the 5th March 2017 at 1:10pm, weighting 3625 and measuring 54cm.

birth did not go as planned, but hey when does it? after carefully planning a natural water birth, hypnobirthing classes and 100 youtube videos 2 many on how to prepare for this day, I ended up having an emergency cesarean.

on the night of the 4th March Contractions started , I was at my parents house having came back from hospital where I had been checked by my midwife to see if I was dilating as Mateo was due on that day, at around 8pm contractions were around 15/20 minutes apart but very mild and manageable , very similar to those of period pains, I remember feeling wet and going to the bathroom to check if my water had broken, it was so minimal that I thought nothing of it, nevertheless I decided it was best to call the midwife who had seen me before just to make sure it wasn't my water, she advised it could've been the mocus us women produce during late pregnancy and I left it as that.

Alex and I arrived home at around 11pm , I made sure my already packed bags were ready for a grab and go situation , I didn't want to forget anything so I left everything we needed at the corridor knowing well Alex is the worst to remember things under pressure, after texting my best friend letting her know I was pretty sure Mateo was on his way, I managed to go to bed at around 1am but woke up at around 4 am with heavy pains, from there the pains got stronger and kept going until 6am, I remember looking at Alex and how peaceful he was sleeping and thinking, " how the hell can he sleep at a time like this!!. At around 7am we both got up, I couldnt take it, the pains were heavy, I jumped into the shower, MIRACLE! the warm water was the best thing that happened to me that morning (apart from having Mateo obviously ,but Mateo was more best thing that happened to me that afternoon!) I recommend it to any women that is soon to go to labor, it relaxes the perineal tissues and decreased the intensity of the pains which by that time I could have sworn I was at around 6 cm dilating (little did I know)... after getting out of the warm bath I was more than ready to make my way to the hospital, the pains were closer in time and after experiencing the reduction of the gravity free environment in the water all I wanted to do was get back in there, as I had booked and prepared for a water birth in the hospital I thought that as soon as I got there I would had been located and settled in my room and hopped in the pool... we arrived in the hospital at 8:10am, my parents, sister and her boyfriend were already waiting for us, I got taken to a room to get examined, the pains got worse and seemed to elongate in time, to my surprise I was only 2cm dilating!!! by this time I felt like crying, I was told I had to go back home but to wait 15 minutes so they could check the babys heart rate.. 15 minutes later, a few throw ups and a very stressed mum to be, I got told I couldn't leave the hospital nor could I be taken to the water pools as my baby´s heart was showing abnormalities and needed constant monitoring. (from here things went downhill) by 10 am I got transferred in a wheelchair to the labor ward as I my labor was turning to be high risk and therefore could not do my birth in water as planned , by this point I was in excruciating pain as I could not move from the laying down position due to the wires that were monitoring my baby, through out my 9 months of pregnancy, Alex and I had always discussed the option to have an epidorial and we were both very much against it, I had warned him before that no matter how bad I asked for it under no circumstances should he let me have it... well the time came for me to ask for it! the pain was soo intense and so powerful that I found myself begging for it, I cried like I had never cried and it only made it worse that I had the most nonhuman and inexperience midwife of all time, my hypnobirthing classes went down the drain and I remember been so frustrated with everyone, yelling at Alex to shut up a couple of times and telling my sister to leave the room as soon as she asked me if I wanted to get my make up done!!! (hahaha remembering my sisters face was priceless)

After 5 hours of the most intense pains, vomiting, begging to be allowed to change positions, crying for any one to get me into a bath, screaming for everyone to leave my side, the worst was still to come, at around 12:55pm , the midwife inserted her fingers in me to break my waters (PAINFUL) to find that I had already broken waters the night before! at 1:00 pm she examined me again, only this time she asked my mum to press a red button which was located behind me as soon as she took her hand out of me, she was panicking.. from there time went really fast! as soon as the red button was pressed around 10 doctors and nursers rushed in my room, the midwife kept telling them my baby had no heart beat, I was in shock, I went into my own world, I kept thinking I was never going to see my babys face or touch his hand, I could hear Alex and my mum screaming and crying in the background.. my sister hurried outside to let my dad know of what was happening.. everyone was moving so fast.. I was rushed into the ward, time was against us.. no one seemed to stop, I got told I was 8cm dilated and that I was about to have an emergency cesarean as my babys heart had stopped, I was fully sedated at 1:05pm not knowing if I was going to wake up to meet my baby.

At almost 4pm I woke up again, everything was quite and empty, I was still very sleepy and couldnt get my head around where I was or what had just happened, with my still closed eyes I heard my husbands voice calling out for me, I kept thinking that depending on the tone of his voice I could figure if my baby had made it with us and he did! My husbands first words were "He looks just like you" never have I felt such relief in words, my soul came back to my body and as I held him in my arms and I saw his innocent little face and his perfect little fingers I knew no one was ever going to keep us apart.

As soon as Mateo was born the whole dynamic of my experience changed.. he was born a very healthy boy and I had no complications afterwards...from the first day he was born he has been breastfeed, I was fortunate to have him latched on my nipple without any difficulty and without any help, I can honestly say it was the most natural and amazing feeling of accomplishment, I have heard and read many stories where baby don't manage to latch on or baby rejecting the breast or no milk coming out and I thank God this was not my case.

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Mateo, 1st day born

Now my little bundle of joy is 3 months,

Mateo has gotten to a routine now where he falls fast asleep at 10pm and wakes up between 6 and 7am, first 2 months we used to wake up twice to feed and get changed, now he sleeps through the night ! yaaay for me :) .. more info in my next blog.

To Mateo, the love of my life, on the 5th of March 2017 after seeing your face for the first time, I ask, Who gave life to who?

Sent straight from heaven up above Came an angel for me to love To hold and rock and kiss good night To wrap my arms around real tight To cuddle and nurture and watch him play To kiss his boo-boo's all away To keep him safe and warm and count all his toes To hold the tissue for him when he blows his little nose To laugh at his jokes, to clap as he sings To tell him all the joy in my life that he brings To clean up his play dough, to pull his legos apart To pin up his drawings and tell him it's art To watch his first day of school on the bus all alone To fight back the tears as I make my way back home To applaud real loud when he's in his first play To help him with his homework at the end of his day To adore and cherish and watch him grow To guide and teach him all that I know To see him through good times and help him through bad To share in his happiness and cry when he's sad To hold him close and be by his side To watch him through life as my heart fills with pride To help him with decisions, the best that I can To know that someday he'll be a fine young man.